Faith Is Not always Easy!

God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. (James 1:12 NLT)



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“I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief"

When I was diagnosed with cancer in 2012, I believed God could and would heal me from stage 4 Lymphoma, that ultimately spread to the brain and thyroid cancer. But if He didn’t, I know I belong to Him and He is my Savior and Lord. After thyroid surgery, I spent months  taking strong chemo and weeks of whole brain radiation.

Often I thought of the father who brought his son to Jesus in Mark 9: “One of the men in the crowd spoke up and said, Teacher, I brought my son so you could heal him. He is possessed by an evil spirit that won’t let him talk. And whenever this spirit seizes him, it throws him violently to the ground. Then he foams at the mouth and grinds his teeth and becomes rigid. So I asked your disciples to cast out the evil spirit, but they couldn’t do it.” Jesus said to them, “You faithless people! How long must I be with you? How long must I put up with you? Bring the boy to me.” So they brought the boy. But when the evil spirit saw Jesus, it threw the child into a violent convulsion, and he fell to the ground, writhing and foaming at the mouth. The father said, "Have mercy on us and help us, if you can. Jesus replied, “What do you mean, ‘If I can’? Anything is possible if a person believes.” The father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark 9:17-24 NLT)

There have been times I have said, “Lord, I’m like that little boy’s dad. I believe You have all power and I believe You can heal me. If there is any unbelief in me, please help my unbelief.” In November 2013 when I had quarterly scans, the doctor said, “You have no cancer in your body. God has given me healing not because of anything I have done, or not done, but because He chose to bring healing at that time in my body. I know it will be a while before I will get ultimately healing. One day I will breathe my last breath and I will be ushered into the presence of God because Jesus is my Savior and Lord. That will be my ultimate healing and I will spend eternity with Jesus in my heavenly home!

I like what Peter says: "All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is by his great mercy that we have been born again, because God raised Jesus Christ from the dead. Now we live with great expectation, and we have a priceless inheritance—an inheritance that is kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled, beyond the reach of change and decay. And through your faith, God is protecting you by his power until you receive this salvation, which is ready to be revealed on the last day for all to see. So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. (1 Peter 1:3-7 NLT)

Since I have not yet received my ultimate healing, I expect to have some snags along the way. That is the way life is, but I am confident God is in control and I am trusting in Him. I am so glad I belong to Him! It was the Apostle Paul who said, And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:19 NLT). I'm trusting in Him.


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